pea brain and small talks

The Case of Ma and Fa

2007-06-16T14:28:00.000-07:00

"I was just wondering, where did the Ma in your name come from?" asked our account manager.

It's supposed to be Maria actually, i informed him.

"Ohhh...it's just that almost all of the girls here in the Philippines have Maria in their names." This one's American.

The other business analyst butted in, "My friend said I'd be able to find a lot of Fabios here too."

Where you able to meet one? i asked.

"No."

Because there are no horse riding, hair flapping, muscle twitching, nipple dancing male species in here. Just your regular beer guzzling, balut munching ones.

Fabios. Hah.

test

2006-12-17T08:52:00.000-08:00

House Of Pain Lyrics

House Of Pain Music Codes

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just to see if this works.

2006-12-16T23:54:00.000-08:00

does it?

Fiona Apple Lyrics

Fiona Apple Music Codes

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I am the Christmas Scrooge

2006-12-11T22:00:00.000-08:00

...not by choice anyway.

I just quit my job and I'm trying to make do of the remaining money that I have, meaning I have to scrimp and try to budget the little wittle amount until the end of the month (or worse, until the 15th of January). My friends have been asking me what gifts I want for Christmas, and I feel ashamed because I know my gifts will be post-dated. Hell, I couldn't even afford cards!

Sigh. This is sad.

(Browsing through the Barnes & Noble website for titles.)

I think I'll ask Sue to get me Confederacy of Dunces.

***

i just wanna show you how I look like with glasses and a snout. Oink oink.

I keep coming back to...

2006-11-01T12:08:00.000-08:00

Blogger.

I'm such a blog slut. Everytime there's a new blogging service, i would always sign up and create an account. Currently I have Yahoo 360, LiveJournal, Vox, and Friendster blogs. Of course I can't seem to maintain them altogether. I only get to update this one and Yahoo more often. I have been trying to shift my attention to Vox, since it has a good community and great templates.

But you know what? Blogger still has my heart. I've been with it for three years now. I've tried to delete this one, but there were too many good things I've written in here (in my opinion anyway; i don't need to hear what you have to say, screw you). Blogger put up with me during my fickle-minded moments; I've changed the template for so many times already - although I have to confess that not once have I been contented with anything I've tinkered with.

But here I am, still with my beloved Blogger. It may not be able to bring me some people to read this post. But it had helped me express my thoughts. It had allowed me to pick on whatever subject freely, without any outside pressure. It may not be the easiest tool to work around with, but I learn how to use basic HTML codes and for me, that's priceless.

I heart Blogger. I really, really heart it.

a special holiday for the dead...really.

2006-11-01T09:32:00.000-08:00

I never get it. Why is it called All Saints' Day on Nov 1st (here in the Philippines) when a lot of people visit their dead relatives who are obviously no saints? Why do most people pay their respects only during this time of the year? And for people who can't visit the tombs of the deceased, why is it still essential to light a candle for them? Do flames send out a secret message to the spirits that they have been remembered? Do they care, really?

Don't get me wrong, my two grandmothers already passed away. My lola from my father's side had been buried in Bicol, while my grandma from my mother's side had been buried in Ilocos. I'm currently in Manila. I wish i could thoroughly explain to you as to why it is not possible for me to visit them. However, i do have an illustration here that could justify my predicament. Please see exhibit A.

Okay. Point A will be Quezon City (that's where I am right now). If I go to Iriga/Naga (where my father's mum is buried), which is Point B, it'll take me 13 hours just to get there (Can't find Naga? It's somewhere Southeast). And from there to visit my mom's mum, I have to travel up to Laoag, our Point C. Try to look a little Northwest, you'll find that city. Travel time: about 20-25 hours from Point B.

Timeframe to kill myself so i can be with my grandmothers in the next life: give and take 5 mins.

(Of course, I'm not too sure if the latter will be a very good idea.)

When I was younger, my mom would always try to shush me, explaining that "The spirits don't like being disturbed during this time of the year."

HUH?!? How come the spirits never told me that themselves? And why Nov 1st? Why not Jan 1st, when all possible firecrackers have been shooting off everywhere? Why not on my birthday, when I love singing for me at the top of my lungs? Why not during the Iraqi war? Why not during Chinese New Year?

Do these ghosts actually have a calendar with them? And do they have wristwatches too? If no, then how can we tell that it's not okay to go on about our noisy businesses on All Saints' Day?

(Okay I have confirmed it. I just asked my co-workers if their mums have been trying to shut them up on Nov 1st when they were younger, and they said no. My mum's a weirdo.)

It's not that I don't believe in wandering spirits and ghosts and strange creatures. I do believe in them. I just don't believe that they make their presence known more during Halloween, and that they want to be remembered altogether on the first day of November. It's not like a birthday or anniversary, anyway?

Or i'm just bored at work. Ah well.

just some thoughts.

2006-10-31T07:19:00.000-08:00

how difficult is it to buy your food alone?

how hard is it to go to the washroom alone?

how tough is it to cross the street and buy your coffee alone?

how painstakingly scary is it to do some of your business alone?

tell me, HOW FUCKING HARD IS IT TO DO SOME OF YOUR STUFFS ALONE???

goddammit, while you're at it, i might as well send you some wheelchair, so i have a good reason to do all of the things with you, since you're too scared to do things on your own.

grr.

I've Quit Smoking

2006-10-23T02:45:00.000-07:00

Seriously.

Ending Credits Rolled Even Before the Show Started

2006-10-17T04:58:00.000-07:00

You stole my thunder!!! -- Monica Gellar

How I hated it when someone lacks some oversight.

But I hated it all the more when too much pro-activeness have left me in the abyss of saying, "Darn it. It's my idea."

Life sucks. I used to say I can suck back at it better, but now I'm not too sure if I can keep up with it.

This is funny. Sad, but funny.

2006-09-27T13:48:00.000-07:00

How easy is it to kill a child whose sole intention is to entertain?

As long as you do not have a conscience, then it should be a breeze.

Oh, and by the way Arroyo, get outta the office. This only demonstrates what kind of a hypocrite you are.

Sunday Mourning

2006-09-23T21:00:00.000-07:00

I woke up and found that Dennis left me a message on my phone. I texted him back. Then he called me up.

Definitely a pretty way to start my Sunday. :)

*****

I'm bound to go nowhere and do nothing. Just been watching reruns of The Roadrunner Show and Tom & Jerry.

lunchtime. but i wanna go on diet. waaahhhh!

Friday Madness

2006-09-15T14:44:00.000-07:00

A friend took a picture of me with a moustache. It took him several takes before we got conviced that I looked like a guy *grins*. Too bad i still haven't uplaoded it on my yahoo photos, but i'll be posting that one soon.

Me and my roommate also made two of our guy friends wear my shirts (My "Young Gifted Filipina" and 7-Op sleeveless shirts). Too bad we didnt get to take some pics of them. The shirts flattered their bodies well.

Ah well. I can't wait for the weekend.

right now? i'm pissed.

2006-09-13T12:56:00.000-07:00

get outta the way. hell hath-rat-tat-tat-tat-tat no fury like a krista scorned.

Now Available in Paperback

2006-09-06T16:12:00.000-07:00

and about time too!!!

And Today I am Grateful...

2006-09-01T15:05:00.000-07:00

Today I am most grateful.

Despite the fact that I have to drag myself to work, I have wonderful co-workers.

Despite the fact that my love is now far away from me, he still lives in my heart.

Despite the fact that I didn't get to have enough sleep, I have been with a funny bunch of people who, (i accuse!) are solely responsible for my lack of sleep.

Despite the fact that I have difficulty finding jeans lately, I found one to be of a flattering fit.

Despite the fact that I have missed my mom's birthday, she will still be waiting for me on Sunday (good enough of an excuse to have a good dinner with her).

But most of all...I am most grateful...

Because despite the fact that i have an a**h**e boss...

I HAVE REPORTED HER TO THE HR DEPARTMENT, FILED FOR A COMPLAINT, WITH SUBSTANTIAL DOCUMENTS TO BACK ME UP ON MY CLAIM.

(burn bitch burn!!!)

Weekend with Lee...Next Weekend with Gaiman...Every Saturday with Roomie and Magic Sing

2006-08-27T02:23:00.000-07:00

I have heard about him. Sometime ago...last week, to be specific.

And I met him last Thursday. Since then we have been inseperable.

He introduced me to Jack Reacher. "Reacher," he said. I was tempted to say, "Sylvia* here," but then it will be awkward, as I was not used to being called by my last name. He didn't acknowledge it though, as he's busy with other things, like making a million bucks for Lee. I wished some Reacher did the same thing for me too.

But then again, my creative juices got away from my blender. Well, even if they have stayed, the blender wouldn't work. It has been unused for sometime for that purpose. It only worked well with extracts from excel and AVAYA. Lately, that is.

Did i want to become a writer? NO. I was happy being part of the buying market. Only that I thought i will be happier if these goodies were for free.

And i will be happiest if only I were to become Neil Gaiman's agent. I got to know him through the Sandman and his peachy sister, Death. It was in 1998, i believe. A friend of mine from college let me read the stuff (along with Heavy Metal hee). Then a few years ago, I have discovered about Gaiman's novels and short stories. They look good enough to eat.

I read them instead.

Now, a friend from work lent me this book. I have to get rid of Reacher first so I can entertain Babycakes and the others.

And when i opened the book, i thought my envy was about to eat me whole.

THE FRIGGIN' BOOK HAS GAIMAN'S AUTOGRAPH ON THE THIRD PAGE.

I was about to rip the page apart, strike out my friend's name and replace it with mine, frame it up and display it alongside my Dad's Golf trophies. Yes, i was so seethed with envy. You can even hear my teeth gritting with utter jealousy, yes?

Grrr.

I haven't slept well for the past few weeks. Nothing's bothering me. It's just that my roommate got to borrow a friend's Magic Sing that we have been singing from the moment we got from work until our voices become hoarse. It's fun, up to the point that it's becoming boring cuz we have already sung every imaginable song in the playlist. Yes, we even sing the songs we don't know.

Poor neighbors. Good thing the Administration of the condo still hasn't notified us about enraged tenants. So we're not going to stop. :D

*not my real last name :P go figure.

Do you know how to spell DREAD?

2006-08-25T09:39:00.000-07:00

It's past 12 midnight here and i'm still at home. I don't really want to go to work. Not anymore, to be honest.

i want to give my boss something to remind her of how much i hate her...probably a sticker of this:

yeah.

Friday I'm in Love...Monday I'm Out Sick

2006-08-22T11:11:00.000-07:00

My Manager told my teamleader that it seems to her I have a Monday-and-Friday-sickness.

I beg to disagree. I only have Monday sickness. The only time i skipped work on a Friday was when i had a flu.

I hate her guts. She doesn't know anything about our line of work.

I hope she gets fired. *evil grin*

The Emancipation of Feefee

2006-08-20T07:23:00.000-07:00

Before, my mom would get mad everytime i would bring up the topic of altering my hairstyle. She wanted me to look dorky.

No No No Mommie.

I now have BANGS. (too bad, i have no pic right now. i look gorgeous.)

(sticking my finger up my throat. gahhh)

BTW, my bestfriend passed the Medical Board exams. That geek. I know she'll make it. Me proud of her.

Terribly Proud, that is.

Sunday

2006-08-05T23:59:00.000-07:00

Today...later....in an hour...

i'll go to church for Trish.

SHETTTTTTT. Can someone go to mass for me for her, please??

My Heart's Desire...

2006-08-03T11:42:00.000-07:00

...is to slit off his throat and run the sharpest blade on his face, while he sings "Close to You".

The Test of Friendship...

2006-08-02T15:35:00.000-07:00

I woke up yesterday at 1.10pm and saw several text messages on my phone. Two of them came from Trisha, my bestfriend since second grade. It came as a surprise since i seldom hear from her these past few weeks. Or months, actually. She has been busy reviewing for her Medical Boards exams, and the exam proper will be taking place on Aug 6th & 7th, and on Aug 13th & 14th.

So the first text was actually about thanking those who have been wishing her luck for the board exams, and to keep praying for her as she would be needing "Divine Intervention" for her to pass the test, according to her. What terrified me was her second text.

"Krista baby, please please please attend a mass on Sunday and pray for me, although i know you no longer go to mass but i really really need you to, for me please? For your forever best friend? Since second grade? Please?"

I called her up.

Me: This is utter blackmail.

Trisha: No, I just need Divine Intervention.

Me: Well, FYI, I'm Krista, not Kristo. Not Christ, not Jesus. I'll just bring you coffee on Monday.

Trisha: No, just one Sunday Mass for me please???

Me: And what? Find me at a hospital unconscious? Your God will definitely strike me a lightning once he tracks me down in one of his premises.

Trisha: No he wouldn't!

Me: I'll ask my Mom to offer a prayer for you, God is bound to listen to her than to me.

Trisha: NO, I NEED YOU TO DO IT FOR ME.

Me: I don't want to do it. I can always keep my fingers crossed. Or even call to all wandering spirits in our backyard?

Trisha: If God do so strikes you in the event that you were hearing Mass for me, and I pass, you have nothing to worry about your hospitalization or such.

Me: Of course, I have my Medicard. Heh.

Trisha: Stop that. You didn't go to Mass with me on my birthday.

Me: Lucky you, I didnt go to mass on my own birthday too. Tee hee.

Trisha: This is what i have wanted since we were little Krista. I wanted to become a doctor. You know it. We both know it. And this is all I'm asking of you. Just once. Please.

(silence)

Me: If only I dont love you that much.

Trisha: You'll even receive communion too?

Me: NOW YOU'RE ASKING FOR TOO MUCH!

Trisha: Just once!!! Agghhhh!!!

Me: Well, you might as well ask me to go to confession.

Trisha: I could set you up for that.

Me: You want me to take my promise back?

Trisha: Okay. Two Sunday Masses?

Me: Shut up. Once is enough.

Trisha: Two.

Me: I'll just light a candle for all the wandering spirits just so they may unite all their forces for your board exams.

Trisha: Fine, I'll settle for one.

No wonder we're friends for this long. 18 years. gawd. Compromising up to the point of haggling.

All in the name of friendship. not that i'm complaining. I just really really hope she does well.

After all, this is what she have wanted all her life. Might as well do something for her, even if it doesn't sit well with me.

In Pursuit of Fighting off Evil and Promoting Justice and Equality

2006-07-30T19:14:00.000-07:00

"I, Takeshi Mask Rider Black & White, have been commissioned to save the working class from the philandering intents of THE BOSS and to rescue toilet paper rolls from the evil hands of Smeagle aka Precious*. So help me Fuma Ley Ar."

"Duraemon 1023-A, this is Eagle Two reporting, do you copy? THE BOSS has been detected to have taken off 15 degrees northeast, and taking a sudden dive 45 degrees southwest...heading to the fire exit...no, she's not floor walking, she's sneaking out for a ciggy...SHE JUST TOOK HER BREAK 30 MINUTES AGO OK??..(i have to call)...BLUEHAWK! What?!? Shaider still has it? Drat. Okay, just bring in KITT....no, don't bring Hasslehoff! "

"Is it just me, or your interiors very much look like my previous office, huh, KITT?"

*my co-worker who taught me how to pull out the cover of the toilet paper case in washrooms on occasions we ran out of paper towels.

After much contemplation...

2006-07-29T15:07:00.000-07:00

I have realized i should pursue what i want in life.

...come to think of it, WHAT DO I WANT IN LIFE ANYWAY?

bahhhh.

Why were these women divorcing from their Husbands?

2006-07-28T21:52:00.000-07:00

...Because the men have better make-up kits. Other than that, I can't think of any other OBVIOUS reasons.

Freaky Friday

2006-07-28T14:57:00.000-07:00

This is not a very good day for me. But I took it all out on a pain-in-the-ass taxi driver by screaming at him when he was being such a whiner, he just can't fucking stop complaining as to why am i only paying him that amount when we just went through the horrible traffic (he wanted me to pay more when it was just Php40 from our apt to my workplace)...

"ARE YOU SERIOUSLY BLAMING ME FOR THE FUCKING TRAFFIC??? ARE YOU?!?!!!!"

(When in reality, my knees were trembling cuz he might run me over hah. "I'm so gonna report you, just you wait," as i have told him. It shut him up.)

Slam Your Body Down and Wind It All Around...

2006-07-23T22:51:00.000-07:00

A lot of people here are anticipating the Pussy Cat Dolls' concert to be held at Araneta Coliseum this weekend i think. My friends are planning to watch, and even my boss has made up a Pussy Cat Doll handshake:

Boss: You give me a low five, flip your hand like this, then flip your hair like that. You got it Krista! (in a highpitched voice) Pussy Cat Dolls!!! Let's do it again, quick!

Me: Errr, if only I could forget respecting you as my boss, then why the hell not?

Boss: You shape up Krista, go back to work.

Me: No, let's do it. NOW. (stands back and maneuvers while singing) Doncha wish your girlfriend was hot like me...owwwww!

(Of course, Boss already headed back to her desk that time. Bummer.) Anyway, everywhere I go lately, it's either I hear the song, "Beep", or "Buttons", or "Stick wid U", it's starting to get annoying actually. Their singles obviously have a following to Britney Spears' "Hit Me Baby One More Time" (Sure honey, I'll Hit You with a Baseball Bat Any Time, just call me...CALL MEEEEEHHH!!!). Plus I really can't tell them apart from one another. They looked like sextuplets, only that they came from different fathers. And with different wigs of course. But everything else look the same. They do not have the element of diversity.

Unlike the Spice Girls.

It affected me (in some way...okay, it greatly affected me) when the group broke up in 2000 ...but not in the same way that it affected Dennis (Ha ha!). I know that there were other girl bands who preceded the Spice Girls (think the Go-Gos, Bananarama --our personal favorite, the Bangles, Indigo Girls...and so on and so forth), but their success was nevertheless phenomenal. And you can easily pinpoint who Scary Spice, or Baby Spice, or Posh Spice, or Sporty Spice, or Ginger Spice is. At times they appeared so tacky it's almost lovable. Especially in their movie, where i started to love Posh Spice (yes, me and a friend shamelessly watched it in a moviehouse when we were 17...and there were only about 8 of us watching the actual movie. But who cares?!? It's not like a mosh pit would be set up inside).

Then Ginger left. Yeah, they were able to create another album, but they were not able to pull it off in the same manner that they did before. *sob*

So...I was downstairs and finished devouring the pansit when i came across my Spice Girls album on top of our cassette player. Teary eyed, i slipped it inside the cassette player (yes it was a cassette tape, but I never bought it from a dibidi salesperson down Quiapo) and drew a deep breath...

"Victims of Loveeeeeee....a broken down the pathhhhh...." Drat. Someone overwrote the tape. Bastards.

Anyway, i thought of uploading the Spice Girls' single to fame....Enjoy.

PS. This is for my boyfriend too btw...I just "wanna I wanna I wanna I wanna I wanna really really really wanna ziggy zig uhhhhh" see you dance to this with that pink shirt and a short skirt. Mmmmm hairy legs. jk :P

Of Subconscious Gluttony

2006-07-23T21:34:00.000-07:00

I have willfully given myself into submission of the great slumber call. The cool weather only made me fall asleep faster.

And then, after what seemed to be a very long time....I had a dream. A strange dream.

It was during a time that me and my whole team went on break together, and Yrene was with us. Almost all kinds of food were displayed, but nothing really enticed my appetite. I just sat with the rest of the people drinking OJ and consuming more cigarettes than i can handle. Upon realization that i was getting hungry, Yrene pulled me from my chair and she bought another round of pancit palabok. I, on the other hand, was drawn to this one store that doesn't have anything in its cupboards. But a chinese girl have been manning the store. So i went inside and asked what they have.

"Ate, meron kaming gyoza...7 pesos for 10 pcs," said the chinese girl. (We have gyoza for 7 pesos for 10 pcs)

"7 pesos?!? Seryosohan? Ang mahal nyan sa Saisaki ah!" (7 pesos?!? Are you serious? That's expensive at Saisaki!)

"Samin po mura. Tingnan nyo yung menu," as she pointed to the list of menu. (It's cheap here. Just look at the prices at the menu.)

I was surprised to see that they only have gyoza on the menu, but my goodness....for 20 pieces, it's only for 20 pesos, and Php 22.50 for 30 pieces!

So i told her I will get the 10pc order. Hell, she even gave me another free OJ! So when i asked her how much it would be, she asked me if i'm not going to buy anything more. I obviously had no plans of stuffing myself silly with 40 gyozas. So i said it's about it. She pouted, seemingly disappointed. What can I do?!? They only have these friggin' gyozas!

So I shrugged my shoulders and asked her again, "Ano pa ba meron kayo jan?" (What else do you have anyway?)

So we raided the fridge to find out a lot of Eng Bee Tin's famous Ube and Pandan Tikoy. I told her I want those, since it's been 3 months when I have eaten Tikoy. She said it's not for sale. In the freezer, I saw Eng Bee Tin's Hopiang Baboy. I thought to myself this is useless, as everything in the fridge were not for sale.

I ended up giving her 20 pesos. 7 pesos for the gyozas, 13 pesos for the OJ. Blahhhhh.

I woke up after I got out of the store with my food wrapped in plastik labo in my dream. Then i went downstairs and ate pansit.

Heh. No wonder I'm gaining weight. I live to....Eat sleep eat sleep.

Weather Advisory

2006-07-23T17:10:00.000-07:00

*ahem ahem* "GLENDA" was located based on satellite and surface data at 230 kms east of Basco, Batanes (20.6°N 124.3°E) with maximum sustained winds of 150 kph and gustiness of up to 185 kph. It is forecast to move west northwest at 19 kph. Southwest monsoon affecting Luzon and Visayas.

-- Last time i checked this (2am Saturday) as my previous boss had to ask so he could provide that information to our relationship manager (who's on a business trip to India), Glenda were about 650kilometers away from Basco, Batanes. Upon delivering the news to him, I tried to mimick PAG-ASA's infamous weather reporter, the Late Amado Pineda. "Manila will be experiencing slight to moderate rainshowers and thunderstorms in the next two days", i reported in my most manly voice (not that im saying that i have the most feminine voice out there) which made him crack up.

Right now, skies are starting to clear up. There is, afterall, hope that the rainy weather will subside.

ON A MONDAY?!? Surely you jest. The foul weather will be my perfect excuse to not go to work, since i have to travel 3 hours going to Manila. The storm is like a lullaby that sends me off to sleep, to the extent that Dennis waited for four hours and thirty minutes for me to wake up (sorry bebe *sad face*).

So we're expected to have a series of typhoons until September. Who will it be after typhoon Glenda, i don't know.

YAY bed weather!

My Pork and Beans Part 2

2006-07-19T18:21:00.000-07:00

My superpals, Sue and Anna.

Wishing we were at Seaworld. For the meantime, Tagaytay Zoo will do.

Icon, Supermodel, Jollibee. (Waha Sue i heart you!)

Me, Anwar, Anna. At Starbucks Batangas. (Mamaya may Call Center na dito!)

my Pork and Beans (my spinoff of Anna's "Jellybeans")

2006-07-19T15:38:00.000-07:00

Me and Anwar. And my Tongue. Heh.

KR, Me, and KR's Kar.

Anwar, Anna, and KR. And my Hand. And a Cheesestick. And a Couple of Beers. :)

Me and Anna. Kr's Kar.

2006-07-14T10:51:00.000-07:00

my saturday sunshine is now here *blink blink*

tagaytay here i come!

2006-05-29T23:53:00.000-07:00

i have just discovered while i was browsing some book titles at a nearby bookshop that...

PAMELA ANDERSON HAS WRITTEN A BOOK?!? AND A NOVEL FOR THAT MATTER?!?

And it has been lined up along with books by Amy Tan, Meg Cabot, Mitch Albom, Helen Fielding, Nick Hornby, Alice Walker, Toni Morrison, and yeah okay, Danielle Steele.

The cover was, of course, a shot of her shirtless upper body with stars to cover the nipples and her full, luscious mouth. Would you also like to guess what the title of the novel is?

STAR. Why am i so surprised?

Maybe i should give her a chance. The book was the last copy on the shelf. Well, I have no guarantees if there were several copies actually.

NAH. I'd rather buy Anderson's Playboy Movies hahaha!

----------------------------------------------------

I'm actually looking for the novel "Lolita" by Vladimir Nabokov. For some reasons, it's kinda hard to find here. Maybe i should try looking harder?

Ah well, maybe for now, i'd buy Gabriel Garcia Marquez' "Love in the Time of Cholera". :)

2006-05-29T12:11:00.000-07:00

i have been smoke free for the past three days. once, i felt proud of myself for being able to fight back the urge to buy a pack. but it all boils down to several things:

1) i have flu, my chest hurts, and i have the worst coughs and colds;

2) i'm at my parents, and there's quite a possibility that they'd hit me with a broomstick once they caught me smoking; and

3) i'm broke. lol

right now, i just wanna sneak out of the house, go to 7-11 and buy a pack of Marlboros. but i still feel a bit weak. so i guess i would have to put up with my withdrawal symptoms.

instead of moping around, trying to recall the offensive scent of tobacco, i found several useful ways on how to beat my nicotine addiction.

i blow my nose
i take my dad's concoction of honey and calamansi
i entertain myself with personality tests
i call long distance lol
i blow my nose again.

....and all i can imagine now is ...SMOKE RINGS.

why, oh Philip Morris, oh great god of the tobacco industry, do i have put up with such indescribable agony? why, oh why???

i feel like i have just lost the 207th bone in my body, so that merely goes back to the original 206 count. the ciggy between my lips is in itself part of my anatomy.

and i havent even thought of quitting yet. this is just my usual health protocol.

but what more if i have considered such thought???? NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

2006-05-16T21:53:00.000-07:00

I do not love you as if you were brine-rose, topaz,

or barbed carnations thrown off by the fire.

I love you as certain hidden things are loved,

secretly, between night and soul.

I love you like the flower-less plant

carrying inside itself the light of those flowers,

and, graced by your love, a fierce perfume

risen from earth, is alive, concealed in my flesh.

I love you without knowing how, whence, when.

I love you truly, without doubts, without pride,

I love you so, and know, no other way to love,

none but this mode of neither You nor I,

so close that your hand over my chest is my hand,

so close they are your eyes I shut when I sleep.

2006-05-08T11:00:00.000-07:00

MY LSS

...this is all my co worker's fault.

I...
I was the game he would play
He brought the clouds to my day
Then like a ray of light
You came my way one night
Just one look and I knew

You would make everything clear
Make all the clouds disappear
Put all your fears to rest
Who do I love the best
Don't you know
Don't you know

You've got it all over him
You got me over him
Honey it's true
There's just you
You must have been heaven sent
Hearing me call
You were out on a limb
And you're all that he's not
Just look what I've got
'Cause you've got it all
Over him

Now, don't let him worry you so
Once I met you
I let go
Oh you can surely see
You're so much more to me
Just one look and I knew

You would make everything clear
Make all the clouds disappear
You're better than all the rest
Who do I love the best
Don't you know
Don't you know

You've got it all over him
You got me over him
Honey it's true
There's just you
You must have been heaven sent
Hearing me call
You went out on a limb
And you're all that he's not
Just look what I've got (look what I've got)
'Cause you've got it all (you've got it all)
All over him

You've got it all over him
You got me over him
Honey it's true
There's just you
You must have been heaven sent
Hearing me call
You went out on a limb
And you're all that he's not
Just look what I've got (look what I've got)
'Cause you've got it all
(you've got it all)
Over him

2006-04-26T11:46:00.000-07:00

you have kissed these eyes
dry, from which
the rivers of sorrow and loss
have flowed.

kiss by kiss, the passion have
planted the seed of hope,
and of things
immeasurable.
the seed that casts the light
that casts the shadow
astray.

kiss by kiss, the lightness
each breath have seeked
to sustain little
of what i knew was
life,
through skin,

through hair,

through mouth.

heat upon heat,
dream upon dream,
the might of your hand
upon my hand
i can feel the seed
which took root
deep into the
hearts
of two heaving souls.

too soft, like
whistles of wind.
too engaging, as the brook
to a river,
as the river to
a sea.

skin against
skin,
fingers intertwined.

by the flicker of the eye,
you have seeked.
and
you have kissed these eyes
dry, from which
the rivers of sorrow and loss
have flowed.

2006-01-04T16:55:00.000-08:00

http://deemed-resigned.blogspot.com

that's my latest blog.

i'm getting angsty about anything corporate shit-ty.

2005-12-30T14:52:00.000-08:00

my shift starts in 13 hours, seven minutes.

and it's new year's eve.

sigh.

I MISS MY BEBE!!!

2005-12-29T15:45:00.000-08:00

meet Patrick...he's the poster child for anything groovy and pantless...hehe...my bebe gave this to me heehee

2005-12-29T01:49:00.000-08:00

my friend reco made this...it looks so me, it's creeping me out! hahahaha...thanks reco! muahz!

2005-12-24T14:58:00.000-08:00

all i want for christmas is....

my bebe.

*cheers* Happy Holidays!

2005-12-03T18:43:00.000-08:00

i just saw this from Kitchie's post...and i had the itch to do this too haha! (Muah Kitchie!)

This is who I am, you can either accept it or let me be....

What's your favorite color(s)? Black and White
What kind of music do u listen to? anything but country music (ugh)
What pisses u off ? stupidity and hypocricy...and incomplete data on reports grrrr
What is your favorite movie? Lost in Translation
What worries you most? As of the moment, none
What’s your favorite get up? tanks tops, jeans and my 4-inch wooden sandals
What’s the title of your favorite book? ackkk there's a lot! The Book about Laughter and Forgetting, One Hundred Years of Solitude, The Good Earth, Animal Farm...bla bla bla the list goes on!
What’s the one thing u cant leave the house without? Ciggies, lighter, some change and hair elastic
What’s your favorite perfume? Pleasures by Estee Lauder
What’s your favorite pet? Dogs
What’s your favorite food? i'm not picky with food...bring it on!
What’s your lucky number? 3
The love of your life ? :)
Do you find yourself attractive? why, do you? *bleh*
What is your type of guy ? intelligent and intimidating men...oh intimidate me more!!!
Does looks matter? if the guy looks like leftover meatloaf from last night's dinner...then it will start to matter
What is the sexiest thing a guy can wear? nothing!
Person u respect the most? My dad
Do you believe in happy ever after? Right now I do
Who is your favorite movie star ? Nicolas Cage aghaghagagagahhhhhhh
What class in school don’t you like? Chemistry
Have you ever intentionally hurt someone? yes
Are you afraid of anything? spiders
Have you ever tried committing suicide? no
Do you think you are strong (emotionally) ? yes I am
Been so drunk you blacked out? nope, but I've been so drunk several times, I spoke English the entire night
Had an imaginary friend ? when i was a kid, yes
Cried at sappy movies ? yes
Had a crush on a teacher? no way
Wished on a star whe you were a child? yes
Believe in Santa Claus ? that big fat bastard?
Ever at anytime owned a New Kids on the Block tape? Menudo, yes...New Kids on the Block, no
Planned your week based on astronomy ? hell no
Been on stage and act ? during highschool yes
Believe in magic and witch crafts ? nope
Believe leprechauns can give u a pot of gold? no
Ever been tagged as a Bad Influence? i'm not sure, i'll ask my friends' parents
Who knows all your secrets? me and only me.
Last you cried with ? Muffy...gawd that was a long time ago
Have you ever been mean? Yes...especially if the person deserves it
Fallen in Love ? *flutter flutter*
Played Truth or Dare? yes
Played spirit of the glass? nope, just spirit of the coin ahahah cheeeeaaaap
Watched a sunrise/sunset: several times :)
How old are you ? 25
When's your birthday? Nov 4th
Do you sleep with any stuffed animals? I used to, I'd rather sleep with something else now though ahahahaha
Do you sleep with live animals? with Milky before yes
Who is the last person you talked to On-Line? Steve
What is your favorite TV show? House, CSI, Eat Bulaga :)
What is the last movie you saw? Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (yeah yeah i know)
Book your currently reading? 1984 by George Orwell (this one is long overdue)
Have you ever gone skinny dipping? Not yet
Current mood ? High
Current music ? nada
Current smell ? Fried eggs
Current thing you ought to be doing ? sleeping
Do you smoke? when do i not smoke anyway???
Do drugs? nope
Do you drink liquor ? very rarely
Have sex ? last time i checked, i have hahahaha
Live in the moment? yes definitely
Have a dream that keeps coming back ? none
Play an instrument? air guitar and maracas ahahahaha (i'm musically challenged)
Believe there is life after death ? Nope
Remember your first love ? Unfortunately, i do remember. yuck.
Read the newspaper ? yes
Have any gay or lesbian friends? a lot
Believe in miracles ? yes
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever ? of course
Consider love a mistake ? nope
Kept a secret from everyone? several times
Shampoo? Sunsilk Soft Touch :)
Soap? Dove :)
Day/Night? Night
Favorite drink? coffee, kape, any way you call it
Favorite Person to talk to online? a lot...and :)
Do you believe in Destiny/Fate: Bring in the beers, we need 3 hours to debate on this one
In Angels? yep
In Ghosts? yes
In UFOs?: yes, if you're pertaining to nameless insects
Who do you go to for advice? my highschool friend Anna
Worst Feeling? constipation and upset stomach
Believe in God? right now? NO
Have an obsession? yes...typing the word yes...yes...yes...yes...yesssssss
Have a secret desires ? secret? hell it's already out there!
Have a fetish?? nah
Collect anything ? receipts in my wallet...i dispose them after a year
Have a best friend ? her name is Trisha :) my best buddy since we were 7
Like guns ? i'm not sure
Sweetest thing that a special someone has ever done for you? :)
Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing? hahahahaha
Favorite part of the body to be kissed? mah neck :)
Tickle bone? mah neck
What turns you on ? flat stomachs, smooth napes, and talking dirty ahahahahaha
What you wear when you sleep ? shorts and shirts
Have a crush on line? of course
Weirdest thing you did for love? hmm...can't think of any
For you what is your best asset? my height :)
Are you talkative? sometimes
Adventurous? sometimes
Flirty? not really. I'm frigid hehehehe
Favorite place of the house? bedroom
Have someone special in your life right now? Dennis :)
Motto in Life? do not do unto others what you do not want others to do unto you...get it?
Last time you said 'I love you'? a few hours ago :)
Last time you cried? months ago...oh...Oct...due to work related stress :)
What's under your bed? floor
Current annoyance? my co-worker ahahahaha
Current longing ? :)
Current desktop picture? some WWF poster (my little brother is responsible for this grrr)
Favourite physical feature of the opposite sex ? mmmm...
Favourite place to be ? my bedroom, and Yrene's veranda
Least favourite place ? errr...
Time you wake up in the morning? not applicable
How tall are you ? 5' 8"
Current favorite word/saying ? ampotah
One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to ? Abby, haven't talked to her for a long time
Favorite day? Saturday
Where do you want to go ? :)
Line you remember from any book ? too many!
Favorite line from a song ? "and god help you if you are an ugly girl... but too pretty is also your doom... cause everyone harbors a secret hatred... for the prettiest girl in the room" --ani difranco, 32 Flavors

....

2005-11-19T21:39:00.000-08:00

I can't believe my vacation is almost over...tomorrow i'll be back at work.

WAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Ugh. Can I call in sick?

...

I almost forgot how it feels like getting goosebumps over someone i really like. You know, each and every nerve ending at my fingertips go numb, my eyelashes keep fluttering for no apparent reason, my stomach keeps churning in that i almost feel like vomiting...kidstuff. Yet feeling this way is my newfound bliss. I can always feel the blood painting my cheeks red (or maroon, for that matter haha), and the silliest smile is just about the latest staple i have on my face. As if holding pinkies could send me to delirium. (Yes Steve, as you put it, very much like highschool puppy love.)

Sounds corny, yet it feels like new to me. Makes me act giddy and flustered with embarrassment. But I don't mind. No one's too old for this anyway.

I'm very much into the moment. I've never been this positive before. Everything's so innocent and pure. Some things may not fall into place right away, but they will soon. I'm optimistic about it.

My heart may skip a beat, sometimes it may beat faster than the usual, but either way, I inhale life and love with a renewed hope, and exhale it with a longing to breathe it back in again.

....yuck, and it's making me sound too poetic. haha.

It's just amazing how one person can bring out the best in you. Just when you know the flaws in you are becoming obvious...how that person makes your life perfect out of every imperfections makes every minute worthwhile, ticking along with that enormous thud in your chest. It's kind of overwhelming, but in a beautiful sort of way.

I love feeling this way.

2005-11-17T09:11:00.000-08:00

PRODUCT ENDORSEMENT PART ONE

(I just saw this product inside our bathroom....i can't believe my mom actually bought this one...read along so you would know what i'm talking about.)

PRODUCT NAME: JJJ Papaya Whitening Peeling Cream

TAG LINE: Clean Out Horniness Whitening One Minutes Dispel Horniness

MANUFACTURER: Sanli International Cosmetic Group Co., Hong Kong

EFFICACY(that's what's written on the packaging): This papaya whitening peeling cream by use of natural papaya withdraw the essence, vitamin B3, Vc, and mulberry extraction distillate, availability wipe off face die cell, restrain melanin, strengthen cell renovate, restra in melanin and blemish, skin whitening, look brand-new.

USE: Days for sub-two, first shall face wetness, and weild the product gently knead, then with cleanly water washing.

NOTICE: Avoid into eyeball, if immodesty, shortly washing for cleanly water.

...and i thought reading chinese characters is a more strenous task.

I wonder how my mom uses this product. Clearly she has the ability to understand ENGRISH at its worse.

Ni Hao Ko-Sing Gaw-Luuuuuuu!

2005-11-16T22:10:00.000-08:00

I'm work-free for the next four days...yay! So i decided to live the grand life as planned...

Sleep, eat, sleep, eat, sleep. and go online. and sleep.

I've never felt this exhausted my whole life. I needed my break.

...

Last night, after my singing and dancing rendezvous with Jem, Nina, and Fides, me and Jem went back to the condo at 6pm and i decided to catch the last bus ride to Batangas...and when i got on the bus, i fell asleep right on the spot. But i woke up when the conductor of the bus gave me my ticket, then i went back to my slumber.

I opened my eyes and i found out that i was just a couple of blocks away from my stop, so I fixed myself and went through my things. Something's not right. The conductor didn't ask for my fare. So i was sat there wondering if they just missed me since i was curled up sleeping. One more block away and i will be getting off of the bus FARE FREE.

I signaled the person to come near me. I told him he'll be giving me a free bus ride if he doesn't ask for my bus fare. He was surprised. I gave him the money and got off.

Shit. My parents did raise me well. I'm still an honest sonofabitch.

I was just thinking that they might get penalized once they discover they were not able to get the fares from all the people who got on the bus. I wouldn't want to be in that situation. I mean, it's still a couple of pesos, i could buy 5 packs of Marlboros with that money. But i still chose to point out their negligence and give them the due amount, albeit the delays in travel that i had encountered with their bus line in the past.

But the mere fact that i got home safely, that deserved some honesty on my part.

Maybe i should run as Mayor in our City 5 years from now?

Bleh.

.....

I'm looking for another company to work for. Which reminds me that i should be working on my resume and send that to Jem. She told me their company has an opening for 3 workforce analysts. And the compensation is far much better than what i'm getting now.

Personally, i think i'm overworked and underpaid. Very much underpaid. Everyday, i go home mentally, emotionally, and physically drained. Not to mention financially disappointed too. Not that i mind being tired from all the day's work. I love what i'm doing. It's just that the salary that i'm getting doesn't nearly justify all the workload that we have.

F*cking slavedrivers.

Although i'm having a hard time thinking of leaving the place where i have established friendships. I have a good relationship with my co-workers and my team leader, and with my SDL as well. It's tough to leave those people behind. But I don't want to stay in a workplace where there are a lot of bullshits especially when it comes to employee compensation. They should know better. Our department runs the show. One wrong move from us and the site will be dead. We're the ones who keep the site penalty free. They should not be paying us shit. I know I deserve better. I know we deserve better.

Office politics. And i thought i wouldn't be bothered by those.

But then, I'll keep posting my resume on openings for the similar post. This one will never put up with their bullcrap. They can look for one who will.

Good luck to them.

2005-11-13T21:50:00.000-08:00

The following are not black mail pictures.

I just happen to love my friends too much.

Much too much i think.

MWAHAHAHAHA!!! (places pinky on corner of mouth...ONE MILLION DOLLARS!!!)

Never thought extortion could be this disheartening ahahahahaha!!!

......

I miss Dennis waaaahhh!!!

2005-11-13T21:46:00.000-08:00

Arnold Schwazzeneger...Move over....this is the definition of ..."Body Fit for Romancing" LMAO!!!!

2005-11-13T21:41:00.000-08:00

3some oh yeah

2005-11-13T21:39:00.000-08:00

due to insistent kuinac demand....TAKE THIS! (Modern S&M part 2)

2005-11-13T21:11:00.000-08:00

Nostalgia: Me exactly one year ago.

2005-11-13T20:59:00.000-08:00

goddamn hair all over my face grrr

2005-11-13T20:58:00.000-08:00

three's company :)

2005-11-13T20:55:00.000-08:00

yay! giddy giddy me

2005-11-13T20:53:00.000-08:00

hmmm...Porn Star in the Making lol

2005-11-13T20:52:00.000-08:00

Boo Gerald! waaah

2005-11-13T20:47:00.000-08:00

uh huh uh huh

2005-11-13T20:46:00.000-08:00

my pretty friend bee jay and me goofing around

2005-11-13T20:44:00.000-08:00

me with a constipated face

2005-11-13T20:13:00.000-08:00

Monday Madness...another night at work, another night of commotion, another night of headache...

this too shall pass...it always does anyway.

Another bus ride, another cab ride.

Another night of chinese dimsum.

Another night of quality check on reports. Another riot on the production floor.

Another system issue (i hope not gawd!!!).

Another ciggie break to make time pass by.

Another representative to help out.

Another sigh.

Sigh.

Another night to piss off a co worker (hehe).

Another night to deal with Quality Analysts, another night to deal with Team Leaders.

Another night to deal with.

....

I miss Dennis.

Another night to miss Dennis.

Another sigh.

Sigh.

2005-11-06T19:51:00.000-08:00

i was browsing the net when i came across this site....

http://www.kuro.ph/forums/showthread.php?t=1340&pp=15

just to give you a heads up, the letter E infested all of the words there. a member is not allowed to use any vowels other than the letter E, otherwise he/she will be given a WERNENG (warning). it was so funny i was laughing my ass off.

se mge kebebeyen keng peney...enjey!

mekekekwek wekekekekekekekekekeke!

2005-11-03T14:02:00.000-08:00

CHOCOLATE BOY, THE POT FULL OF ROSES, AND 100 & THE GREAT DIVIDE

I have spent the first part of my birthday at the office...it wasn't at all bad...cuz i have good enough of an excuse to bully people hahaha ("Hey, you, don't you dare give me that explanation, I WILL ALWAYS BE RIGHT TODAY!")...My friend Nico gave me a small cake (he apologized for not having placed a candle along with it)...Me and my teammates ate chicharon all night long, our blood pressures must have shot up way too high...not much workload (which is quite a miracle cuz the office's always too busy)....I got flowers and chocolates from my friend Ishan, only that they were sent to my parent's home address (my mom texted me about it, and i told her, "STAY AWAY FROM THE CHOCOLATES, THEY'RE MINE!!!!")...and i got this nice e-card from someone really special hehe...

Yes, i just hit the big 2-5...Quarter Life Crisis, brrrrrrrrring it!!!!

I don't have any plans tonight except to go to work...(is that a plan?)...but it's going to be my offy tomorrow so yay! I'm thinking my friends would drop by at home so i better be ready to feed all the growling stomachs in them...Trisha, my bestfriend, is planning to drop by (she better bring me a gift hehe)...and so far...my day's turning out to be wonderful...

I dunno what this coming year has in store for me, but i'm a-ready for it. like i said....QUARTER LIFE CRISIS, BRRRRRRING IT!

(oh gawd...i'm twenty five!!!! big fat hairy deal!!!!)

*grins widely and sings mahself...happy birthday to me....lalalalalalaaaaa*

2005-10-24T14:39:00.000-07:00

yes im conceited! me (Nov 2004)

2005-10-24T14:12:00.000-07:00

Modern Day S & M

2005-10-24T14:09:00.000-07:00

the Future Bb Pilipinas...yay

2005-10-24T04:20:00.000-07:00

me and my godchild Pia...taken a year ago hehe

2005-10-24T04:07:00.000-07:00

i'm so sorry...i feel like a traitor posting this pic...but...HUWAHAHAHAHA...wtf is going on? is this a secret love affair??? OMG! aahahaha (omg these two guys are going to kill me! Peace Velmer and Ismael! ahahaha)

2005-10-24T03:54:00.000-07:00

we're not drunk yet...no we're not ... hik

2005-10-24T03:25:00.000-07:00

this is trisha...we're the best of friends since we were in 2nd grade...and yes, she's all that...pretty, smart, intelligent...bla bla bla...and no, i'm not pimping her. too bad she's taken :P

2005-10-24T01:52:00.000-07:00

me and anna...we agreed that we're not friends...we're more than that...NO! WE'RE NOT LOVERS EITHER! she's my sister, my coffee and ciggy partner, my bratty superpal, and everything else rolled into one! me wuvs her dearly!

2005-10-24T01:44:00.000-07:00

my girlfriends...(clockwise starting from the left!: lhen, anna, ana, and beejay)...bidding starts at 50 cents...any takers? yes you...going once going twice...sold!

2005-10-24T01:40:00.000-07:00

me and anwaw...he's just about as bright as a lightbulb...

2005-10-24T01:38:00.000-07:00

playboy bunny numbah 1....

2005-10-24T01:37:00.000-07:00

and this is the playboy bunny numbah two huwahahaha

2005-10-24T01:33:00.000-07:00

anna and anwar happee together times two yay!

2005-10-23T22:15:00.000-07:00

suck this...okay, don't, i don't mean it hahahaha

2005-10-23T22:05:00.000-07:00

we all look good dont we? ahahaha

2005-10-23T22:04:00.000-07:00

me me me me me

2005-10-23T21:49:00.000-07:00

woohoo

2005-10-23T21:46:00.000-07:00

highschool

2005-10-08T21:17:00.000-07:00

who wants a free dog?

2005-10-08T17:26:00.000-07:00

Bottled Snow White

I am dark skinned. and i am not ashamed to say it out loud.

if you happen to live here in the Philippines, chances are, you have seen every possible advertisements about whitening products that you'd choke and die if you even try to keep count. and given a chance of a worse case scenario, billboards from every imaginable side of the highway would scream of the shallowness that whiter skin gets better attention from hordes of men. AND given the WORST case scenario, those sales ladies from department stores would even have to chase you down and assume that you really need to be whiter as it would be your only ticket to attractiveness. Or your friends would even go beyond the borderline of ridiculing you because of your skin color.

I say...Fuck off. My teeth are white, isn't that enough?

It's funny that at this age and time, the skin color is still being subject to thorough scrutiny. I remember one time i was at the mall when a sales lady approached me with this whitening product on her hand. She even has the nerve to tell me, "Ma'am, it would be better if you use this product because it would make you whiter." I just snapped at her saying, "Do i look like i wanted to be white?" Sure, i had been brainwashed at some point when i was younger. But i have lived enough years to learn how to deal with it. I wouldn't want to be part of those women who testify, "I got whiter skin in 2 weeks!" Define white, if you could please. The world has enough discrimination in its hands. I don't think i would be too happy to even recognize that as part of the growing list.

Even funnier, some people would say, "I'm getting darker again...shit," when they're obviously as bright as a light bulb...IN MY FACE. Those people should choose who to talk to.

The commotion about having to keep up with this modern day standard of beauty is outright sickening. It's just my opinion anyway. Take for example the tag lines: "Ponds Whitening Pearl Cream: For Beautiful, Rosy White Skin" (I know some women who have lovely tans, and they're much lovelier); "Skin White: Defy Color" (what the fuck?!?); "Kissa Papaya Soap: Mas Maputi, Mas Kissable" (The whiter, the more kissable<----what if she has halitosis, could you say the same thing???); and the list goes on. It's ridiculous. And what's even more repulsive, one ad used an actress, and she was trying to say that her white skin somehow brought about her success in show business...isn't that a shame that she should be better off crediting that to her talents instead? so it's really all about the skin color huh?

No wonder a lot of women suffer from low self worth and self esteem. The need to conform must be a lot of pressure *yawns*.

My friend BeeJay gets a lot of jokes regarding her being kayumanggi (she's brown skinned like me). She gets back at those people by saying, "You're just insecure cuz i've got a pretty face." Which is true. She's damned pretty. And what's more, she's intelligent, funny, smart, witty, confident...and a lot more qualities not your usual bottled whitening lotion could provide.

But if in case you encounter a whitening product that would bring about tranquility, peace of mind, confidence, and intelligence, buzz me. Otherwise, i can't be bothered. My stock of melanin under my epidermis should pretty much stay where it is right now.

2005-09-19T00:43:00.000-07:00

me and jason...my ATL from my previous workplace...wanna join us in the pursuit to save the world from cavities? LOL

2005-09-18T22:12:00.000-07:00

the lesbian tendencies...batty and muffy...mmm mmm

2005-09-18T22:11:00.000-07:00

kitchie and muffy...cuties :)

2005-09-18T22:08:00.000-07:00

pretty pretty Yrene

2005-09-18T17:37:00.000-07:00

i'm conceited ... yes i am.

i check myself in the mirror or on any reflective surface as much as i can.

(but no, i can't check myself on my shiny forehead...damn, that must be very convenient)

and yes, i like posting my pics here. any questions?

none. good.

heehee...

i gotta sleep.

2005-09-18T17:35:00.000-07:00

say cheezeeeee !

2005-09-18T16:17:00.000-07:00

agent owange c",)

2005-09-18T08:49:00.000-07:00

yay i look like a schoolgirl?

2005-09-18T03:09:00.000-07:00

schleepy me

2005-09-18T03:02:00.000-07:00

Mask Rider Black! Haiiiiiii-Yaaaaaaa!!! *woosh woosh*

2005-09-18T02:57:00.000-07:00

awww my cutie Y...stop covering your face!

2005-09-18T02:47:00.000-07:00

this is foxy...(that's what he/she/it wants to be called haha)...one of the most interesting people i got to know at our workplace...the one who reasoned out.."what's the point of being gay if you're going to be discreet about it..." right on!

2005-09-18T02:38:00.000-07:00

3am...3 weeks ago...ciggie break...outside the office...me...yrene...dave...and...michelle...da night prowlers...rawr

2005-09-18T02:31:00.000-07:00

me and kitchie...hahhaaha my mama-san!

2005-09-18T02:28:00.000-07:00

*me scareddddd* (yuck)

2005-09-18T02:23:00.000-07:00

i didn't know combs existed...hmmmm

2005-09-18T02:16:00.000-07:00

Yrene as the Master Jedi...and I as her Padawan...the Padawan with a zit on the forehead...NOT THE FOREHEAD AGAIN!

2005-09-18T02:10:00.000-07:00

me again...i'm getting even more conceited by the hour haha